Regret or reason?

Dearest Elaine,
I am writing this letter to you because I fear that I will not make it back to tell you something that I should have said a long time ago. The reason why I am writing this letter to you is because the Huns are increasing in strength each day and we are loosing men to fast to count, it looks like we are not going to win this battle I fear that we have lost to these barbarians for good. Our knights are dying off like flies in a window it gets worse by the hour be we will not surrender but instead fight to the death. Even though we would have lost our honor is still intact.
On a better note I am sure that you know I am to be married, but you probably don't know that I have not chosen a bride because it is you that I want to spend the rest of my life with. I have seen you watching me from the top of your hill. You look so beautiful on your horse with your long red hair. I to have watched you in your garden and have hoped you to see but I guess that I was not so lucky. When I returned I had planned to take you away with me so that we could escape the lives we did not choose. I am sorry that we did not get to meet in real life for society got in the way. As I lay here dying you are the only one that is in my thought and I hope as you read this you realize that we will meet in heaven. Do not despair for the day will come soon enough when we can meet and then the bars of society will be forever lost.
With all my love,
Charles