Regret or reason?

Dearest Elaine,
I am writing this letter to you because I fear that I will not make it back to tell you something that I should have said a long time ago. The reason why I am writing this letter to you is because the Huns are increasing in strength each day and we are loosing men to fast to count, it looks like we are not going to win this battle I fear that we have lost to these barbarians for good. Our knights are dying off like flies in a window it gets worse by the hour be we will not surrender but instead fight to the death. Even though we would have lost our honor is still intact.
On a better note I am sure that you know I am to be married, but you probably don't know that I have not chosen a bride because it is you that I want to spend the rest of my life with. I have seen you watching me from the top of your hill. You look so beautiful on your horse with your long red hair. I to have watched you in your garden and have hoped you to see but I guess that I was not so lucky. When I returned I had planned to take you away with me so that we could escape the lives we did not choose. I am sorry that we did not get to meet in real life for society got in the way. As I lay here dying you are the only one that is in my thought and I hope as you read this you realize that we will meet in heaven. Do not despair for the day will come soon enough when we can meet and then the bars of society will be forever lost.
With all my love,
Charles

Why me?

I am 14 years old and live in a little own outside of Constantinople. My mother is ill and my father well he is getting older. I have no other siblings because my mother has been ill for some time now. I do wish that i had someone to spend time with now and then but the chores and taking care of my mother keeps me busy. Being a peasant I live in a little house/hut and have a farm. My best friend is a horse, Hydia, that I got for my 6th birthday. But I have one secret that is haunting me and that no one can find out. You see there is this knight who we work for and he isn't married but is looking for a wife but being the daughter of a peasant I cannot see him. Ever sense I can remember I have been interested in him, His long blond hair and deep voice that draws you in. well anyways some times I ride up to the top of the hill behind my house and watch as he practices sword fighting and jousting. He's so graceful but he won't even look my way because well "it just isn't done" but I believe different I mean how are you to not be a peasant and be someone of class if all you can marry into is your own class. It doesn't make sense and it isn't fair but as my father says life isn't fair.

It is getting so tense here the Huns are really becoming a problem today Charles had to go off and fight on the northern providence. I am hearing more and more people talk about how they think that we aren't going to make it and how we're going to be over run. I hope not i can only pray that are people stay strong. I took a ride to the city today and it looked awful with almost every man gone there is no one to tend the market place it looked like an abandoned camp site with the only customers being the mice and rats. There was no chatter or business it was so quiet I could hear Hydia's hoofs echo down the street. My only thought are with Charles and that he makes it home soon. After all he must keep searching for that bride.